Wednesday, August 6, 2008
seriously i was kinda angry for e past few days . cn i reali scold it out loud here ? i dun find it funny at all for ur stupid jokes , well aparently i'm nt a super women too . dun pass mi all e shit , dun git mi such a greater responsible in future . i was lyk so piss abt it lahs . well , forget it .
he is jus busy wit all tis stuff , his work or his acc things . no tym to msg no tym to mit no tym to talks on e phone for e past few days . i can oni accept e facts tt he is a busy man . tues nite he came to mit mi which sat & sun we din mit at all . well , i'm feeling reali sad . & his msg ytd was so rude , & i replied him "pls get things clear before u show ur attitude to sumone" . wad is e earth gg on nw ?? hais . i feel reali helpless n hopeless . jus oni i told him my job things n he console mi while consoling mi , msging & we have sum argument . i might b harsh in words bt i dun mean it as i'm reali sick of it due to my work . iya shall stop here reali no mood at all nw .
i'm bk to blog nw , din get his replied at all . thru'out my journey bk . i've tot alot of things either in e train or in e bus . i hold my tears thru . i reali duno how long i cn hold onto it . never had anything for dinner cos i reali have no appetite at all . wad's reali gg wrong wit mi ? i duno either . cn anyone jus brg mi away frm tis world ? its lyk continue living wit no meaning . totally lost tdy . din even scan my ezlink aft i alight frm bus . when i reached e lift den i realise it . ivy told mi abt her stories abt her n e bf . peiying told mi he is reali nice to mi & seriously love mi he might nt do things tt is wrg . (i dun wana wrote it as betray cos it sounds awful) . 3tyms as much as e previous bills n he cn told mi he msg mi & his guys . all e past few mths or yrs u have been doing tt bt yet y is nt as much as 1388 ?? n nw we get to msg lesser . less to lesser to worse . demanding abt tis stupid issue till we have an argument n his msg was reali disappointed & sad . i dun wana type it out wad e msg writing abt . reach hm , watch xin hua duo duo kai halfway thru my tears get to drop nw . yeah absolutly i'm nt a strong wan . went to tk a bath n nw here i'm to blog . it brings mi hope to a new life , bt e other hand it shows tt tired-ness is appearing . do i ever get a chance to have my 1st breakfast ? do i get a chance to travel to far destiny countries wit him ? do i get a chance to wear e ring he brought ? sighhh ~ alot of questioned marks is on my head nw . hopefully he understands mi & y am i harsh in my words . read thru each n every msg he sent was lyk kinda sad , touch . last tym when we used to quarrel i will b strong n i reali cn bt tis tym i cant .
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